Now I've just think if someone loves me then I already loves somebody else. what will I do? surely, I didn't want make him hurts because I know what it feels like. You know when someone you love replies your message/call it makes you very happy i mean "really" happy. well I ever be in that two position. so i can understand that she/he you love, reply or not your love, your message, your call it all happens for a reason, can be a good or a bad reason. but in my life that's for a good reason. she/he just didn't want to see you sad so she/he gives you a back signal, although it's not guarantee that she/he will loves you back. maybe she/he want to be your best friend. sometimes it's precisely makes you hurt, but if she/he didn't do that it also makes you hurt right? some people think that is better if she/him didn't do that but i'm sure that you constant sick because of that. and the other think that is better to do that, while wishing she/him will loves you back someday. it's fine. live it's all about forgiving and forgetting. it's all about wishing and waiting. for my live or your live. we didn't talk about right or wrong in here but the manner to give the best for someone that loves you, that's still become a big mystery. but don't worry about that, it will makes you adult more than ever. just let it flow. remember eternal rise "kemungkinan tak terbatas" CHEER UP EVERYONE! pom pom!!!
For my life now it's a very very boring. holiday not means for me, just do the same thing everyday. how this worls would be boring without you? what is life? look around you for a second. life is what happens to you right now, while you are reading this. that's YOU, that's LIFE. but you'll never read this and never care. i received everything you give, bad or good. I always want stand by your side and you didn't. you never there when I need you. you know that i'm stronger then you think hold this for so long. you know since I'm in 2nd grade, you are the one that I love so true. From the very first time i set my eyes upon yours I never move. I loves everything you do. every little thing you do is so meaningful for me. wondering everyday, since summer till rain there's still you. you ever say that you love me, you know that words which makes me hope, I'll give you back, but the fact that's only for a moment. and instead maybe that's not means anything for you. you just take my heart then you leave me away. don't you know how much it hurts me boy? maybe you never think I'm serious that's your big stupid. I'm sick of hope and wishing everday, my fake smile can only hold for my tears for so long. for somebody that love me, I am very sorry I can't give back your love.
Once in my life since I've meet you there is someone that makes me can forget you for awhile but my best friend loves him, and she recent tell me when I'm closer to him and there is someone else close to me, I was confuse. I just know that I didn't want to hurts anyone and I didn't want to loose them. is it egoist? in the other side I'm not ready to start a certain relationship, I was scared that I will just hurts someone later. so I choose my friends, I keep away from him and now he's far away from me, I oppurtunity feel scared and quiet. but I was ever in his position, me enough to feel that sick. I just think that it's funny how your best friend can become your worst enemy with only one mistake. but because of this I have knew how to have a certain attitude I know that is better to forget you and you forget me honey. there are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn and people have to let go because pain never really goes away; you just elevate and get used to it by growing stronger.
(Girls: you know that we are very lucky, when we'll wait for somebody, in the other said somebody will wait for you it means how much the boy you like then there is so much boy that likes you)
I don't know, how much tears fall for you or how much i miss you. yes, only you can make me yearning like this. My friends keep telling me and stand by my side. they are my little sweetheart that can make me strong when I cried. you never did give a damn thing honey but I cried, cried for you. baby maybe you just don't know how to do that and i know what it feels like. so I just wait you growing up to understand that. till arrive the time when you show me that you was become different and I will show you I will be better, I want to be the girl can make you say "you're regret to already vain me". although there are so many people out there who will tell me that I can't, or it just only a scared part of me, all i've got to do is turn around and said "WATCH ME!" fearless. so I want to get a new live in my happy new year! and found someone who can teach me, hurt me, love me, makes me laugh & makes me exactly the person I should be. because I know and my hearts kows if I'll wait for you it's only waste my tears and time. don't be afraid of change, you may end up loosing of something good, but you will probably end up gaining something better. I'll promise. the end, something you don't you know is you really gonna be someone in here in my heart. when I can't endure this sickness, I will said "Bei Ribus Bei Robel" my remarkable words :)
Tadinya sih mau pake bahasa Indonesia tapi biar keren dikitlah sama biar ga lebay-lebay amat akhirnya saya memutuskan pake Bahasa Inggris. tapi saya orang Indonesia asli loh jadi maklum aja ya kalo bahasa Inggrisnya berantakan. Intinya sih kalo kata Andre Hehanusa "kurasa hanya dirimu yang membuatku rindu" lalalala tapi terus Bob Marly said "I don't wan to waiting in wain" hehehe~
